You have got to be kidding.....

As many of you know I got the okay to give Bella rice cereal. I was so excited to begin this new chapter of Bella's life. Her GI doctor was saying that she is doing so good and how pleased he is about her progress. Just when you think life starts to get a little easier you get pulled right back in. I started to notice that Bella's spit up was getting worse since starting the rice cereal ( please note that I was only giving her the "babies first feeding" which is thin enough for her to drink out of her bottle). I thought, " well Stephanie, just give her a couple of says to get use to it, then her body will be used to the cereal and stop the extra spitting up. Well things were not getting better. Today I noticed that her "stools" were really hard and BAM then it hit. Constipation followed by extreme crying and screaming every time she was trying to have a stool. Why is this whole situation seeming so familiar? O yeah, before we found out about Bella's allergy to breast milk this is how she acted for 3 weeks. AHHHHHH. All I could think about today was "you have got to be kidding me, not again". My poor Bella can never catch a break. So I called her doctor ... again ( I am starting to feel like family now), and he said to take her off the rice cereal until the next time we go in. Seriously?..... Seriously!!!! The only thing that keeps on going through my mind is " if she can't even handle rice cereal... what CAN she handle? Rice is the most gentle food out there. I still can not believe this. I feel like we are at square one again. 2 steps forward 1 step back. I hated seeing my poor Bella in so much pain. Not to mention how hard this is on Sydney. All she keeps on asking is "what is the matter with Bella" and "is her tummy sick again?".

 Okay I feel a little better now that I have that off my chest. I just feel so bad for my little Bella-boo. I have no idea how her life is going to be, or how hard it is going to be. Mommies should know how to make boo-boo's better. We kiss away the pain, we scare away the monsters from the closet. And here I am feeling like I have no idea what I am doing and have no idea how to make it better. I guess only time will tell.